Watching spike lee’s first part of his new doc on new orleans, I lost a little bit more of that thing we call hope, and gain more fear, and a little more distrust.
This is true of me as i grow older, i feel i must be more watchful of the powers that be and i have a urge to fight more, or find ways to put into action what my mind tells me is forgotten.
It’s true that ignorance is bliss, because i felt more hopeful the more i believed and the less i knew. It’s not something i know i can get back, or trick myself into regaining, cause like neo i will always feel like something is wrong.
Obama is in office, and i feel a sense of pride because of it, but i can not forget to question him, to have independent thought from that feel, and speak as i would if he was someone else.
Cause reality is he is a man, he can make mistakes, and also i know that there is other things at play, money, religion, business, and misinformation that works against the common good of us all, and helps the needs of a few.
I was out having a drink with Nina, and we were talking about the world and aid told her, “there is no such thing as freedom”, or something like that and it bother her more than i was expecting. I realize something, that there is a dream that we are all sold and told we have a right too.
It’s a dream we do not want to let go, but it’s not reality. Nothing is free or easy that’s worth having. There will always be an enemy at the gate and we must learn to fight for our thoughts, our beliefs, our hearts because we can not trust others to have them or to live them for us.
L
